I've been one of those that has watched everything I had been taught to believe, in uber-liberal Massholeachusetts public schools, dissipate into the nothingness they were created from before my eyes leaving me questioning my own existence and everything I thought was real.
I know that side of the ersatz debate all too well. But it has always been more painful for me to deny what my own eyes told me was actuality as opposed to taking a stand upon the crumbling ground of the immoral decay of Americanism that is elitist liberalism and the worthless moral relativity of the void of any core belief or values and/or at least the conviction to stand for anything real or meaningful that it cultivates.
When serving oneself is the volatile epicenter of ones manufactured universe, it is far too trying to keep having to account for the consideration of others. When the world you've created for yourself keeps being invaded by the sensibilities of others, it is far to tumultuous to maintain the self-constructed facade walls of tenability and doors of mis-perceptions, upon the false foundations and fraudulent building-blocks of delusion when weighing the notion that another man has as much insight, account, and affect upon the existential condition as you do. There must be an answer and there must be a bottom line and that can and does only come from the pinnacle of wisdom, will, and grace; God.
If that is so, and I believe beyond any question that it is, then my own machinations, suppositions, and assertions that only account for my own "reality" are unstable at best and nonexistent in the bigger picture and the realm of all of creation and mankind, but if I subscribe to the greater than myself epitome of existentialism; God's wisdom & will, then I can be a part of everything and have belief reinforced with the commonality of the human condition instead of all of us living separately in our own minds and worlds.
I think therefore I am (Sartre, Et Al) is meaningless unless someone else thinks the same and knows what I know, and such wisdom must come from a higher source than simply another man...
Anyway, my epiphany was utter and complete, I went from a bleeding heart self-centered liberal puke, to a confident knowing True-North American and the transition was far less painful and banal than attending to the lie and maintaining the requisite denial with every waking labor and effort.
It is far more satisfying to have that positive reinforcement and confident self-honesty and bottom-line knowledge, than to keep having to sew more strands of the plausible deniability web weaved from the selfishness of human nature.
The enigma and paradox is that to convince ourselves we (or those that) are self-righteous, we must convince others; that we suppose/assert are lesser, meaningless, or unworthy, that we are righteous and/or superior all while they are trying to convince us of the same to promote their own self-servitude... Which brings us to the original and epitomic; two wrongs don't make a right. Neither are righteous, nor are they when combined capable of becoming true...
Moreover, it is the conundrum of the tyrannically inclined totalitarians and despots... Who is gonna be top dog? And once top dog status has been achieved, why would the top dog need and/or want all of these other top-dog wanna-bes in his inner sanctum as a fraudulent cadre of Servites when they are in actuality self-serving and covetous of his supreme position? Truth be told, Obamanation ET AL now must defend against the ambitions of all those that served the purpose of maneuvering him and their cause to power and prestige in a constant battle of wills and ersatz alliances of the self-promoting...
It is the epitome of an exercise in futility, an utter and tragic waste of existential condition in such a moot quest for liberal elitism. When admitting to the supreme righteousness and superiority of God alone is far more rewarding and at the same time reinforcing of our ideological and existential righteousness...
It's so simple, it's stupid, but I too denied and rejected what my own "lyin' eyes" and blatant revelations was showing and telling me in my heart for a long time in my own youth...
The self-empowerment and success of righteousness came with accepting God as the only superior and supreme master or being is the miracle of such existential dynamic that these poor souls are lacking that would grant them the fulfillment they all seek, crave, and strive to attain, and they are fighting themselves by subscribing to the misfortune of pablum that allows them to try and fence with the undeniability endowed by God.
It is what makes us True-North Americans wonder dumb-founded at their futility and eternal damnation...
They know it doesn't have to be that way, but can't get their heads wrapped around the concept of coming over into the light because they fight the dismissal of all they've known and done with their lives that is meaningless, when it just ain't so bad to let go of that wrong...
Been there, done that, but it hurts less than the constant profound turmoil of unrighteous strife, self-inflicted by fear and loathing initiated by those unAmerican agents of abomination that want totalitarian control over others/all...
You can only achieve it (righteousness/meaning) thru faith!
